5 07 2011

Who am I?

Such a cliche question.

For I am not who you think

There is another side of me

The other side of me

Is a strange world

A new escape

A new beginning

This is where I come to restore sanity

I never want to be found

And I never want to go home

life is…just life

28 01 2010

seen the world with these two eyes,

spread wings but didn’t fly

asked God why, to never receive an answer,

loved completely and watched them leave

cried like never to smile

walked in darkness for half a mile

saw the sun in the distance for a small while

laughed until could not breathe

faced fears with a stern face

wept all night,

almost never made it

had times that that was it

was so close to death

there’s so much more inside of us,

without speaking a word.

seen it all, yet you know there’s more

where will it take you,

what it will take from you,

where does this lead you,

where will it leave you

people don’t want you to be you,

want us to be the person they want to see

This is life,

Life is just….life







but we live,

through the pain,




The fact is……

we are alive!!!

So until i finish my final task,

a little peace is all i ask.


18 11 2009
Loving you brings to me such pride,
every second I find myself loving you more
I love your smile, your laugh, your touch;
Your kisses awaken my saddened heart
All the time in between while we’re apart,
I miss you terribly, but it is still a perfect day,
For I carry you in my heart


22 10 2009

i sat to write a poem

a poem to describe my heart

a poem that represents me

a poem to express my thoughts,

with a canvas of a paper

a mind with emotions,

but i lost my words, i lost my poem

where did my words go,

the white paper, remained as beautifully white,

lost lost lost

where are my words

maybe stolen

maybe lost

somewhere in the depths of time

a poem lost, never to find

so here i sit, looking at this white

and a thousand emotions fade away……


22 09 2009

who am i..why do you come near me..cause u want me…cause you think i am beautiful…am i…look again…i am an ugly angel…..who you see living,smiling,laughing,crying…with beautiful eyez to die for…..with large wings that flutter to fly….with an halo that illuminates my soul….with tears that cry with yours…. i am the one u’ll love for no reason…. but then i scream….asking you to look again…look at me….look into these eyes….deep inside…..do you see me bleed…..do you see the fire that Burns the halo….the rage that tears my wings….the devil that rips my soul…..do you see..haa…the beautiful devil…camouflaged behind the angel….do you see me…living this death with complete insanity….do you see my ghost that makes me oh so sane….no….you dont….you cant as you are too blinded by the obvious…..by the ugly…..no..you can never know….you dont deserve to know me…. and dont you dare to come any where near me…..ma fire will burn ya down…i’ll poison u so slowly that u’ll beg for more….beg to die…..but i’ll still keep u alive cause u dont deserve death……..

Consumed by fire, Renewed by the flames, Reborn inside and out

15 09 2009

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8 09 2009


tears fill my eyes,

silence keeps me silent ,

thoughts completely die,

am i myself

are we really ourselves

its such a irrelevant question

is there any truth in what u see in the mirror

in the shadow that trails your body every moment

are you really you

why do i live in the moment of  I

why do i ask myself this .. always ???


when you can close your eyes to the illusions the

day presents..

when you can cut out the blinding light of the sun

and say hi to the other side..


is sitting under that lamp-post lost in thoughts you

wont ever be brave to face in the light ..

Night ..

when ya cant see whats ahead of you

but whats within you

night is the time of truth..

there are no more masks to say hi too..

no more feeling sick of the fake smiles..

night is feeling alone,,

feeling like what God feels.. yes

Night is The God – The Unknown

shadowed again…

untamed again….